From A Miscarriage and Pandemic-Sized Loneliness to a Passionate Content Creator
I overcame loneliness during the COVID-19 pandemic to give birth to my precious baby girl. Soon after, I suffered a miscarriage that brought me to new lows both physically and mentally. When it was all over, I was blessed with gratitude, and I became a content creator.
I want you to know who I truly am and the journey that brought me here. My close friends and family members have seen me create fun happy content. They have also seen me lonely and struggling. This is my story, and I hope that it gives you an idea of who I truly am.
Connecting Family and Professionalism in College
In college, I struggled to pick a major because I felt two different pulls within me. On one hand, I yearned to get a degree, make a career, and become a girl boss babe in an analytical industry. On the other hand, I longed to have children with my husband (Matt), raise a family together, and spend slow days curating our beautiful home. I thought I might be onto something when I found a major in Family Studies, although it would take me years to pinpoint what I would do with my life post-college (okay, let’s be honest, I’m still figuring it out!!)
Struggling With the Pandemic
During COVID, we moved away from family for Matt’s summer internship. That summer I worked at an online job for about 10 hours a week and spent the rest of my time feeling excruciatingly lonely. Most public places were closed and I didn’t know anyone for miles, so I was left alone for hours every day. I started going to the grocery store for one item daily just to experience some social interaction (bless the cashiers at Safeco, WA!).
As I researched ideas for how to spend my time, one option caught my attention, which was to start a blog. Immediately I was filled with ideas, excitement, and even motivation. I couldn’t stop thinking about what to write about. I wanted to share knowledge and value, especially if I could help families along the way. I started my blog and shared it with friends and family members. I even purchased a blogging course and started to apply smart blogging tips.
Halfway through the summer, Matt’s internship ended unexpectedly early due to the pandemic. We moved back and spent a few weeks living with in laws until we could secure our own apartment. I had to complete my college degree online, and worked 2 jobs online as well. I spent hours alone at my computer every day, which was an extremely difficult challenge for my extraverted self. But, I tried to mix up my long days on the computer with quick breaks for a bit of blogging.
Even though the rest of the year was still full of loneliness and unique pandemic struggles, writing blog posts and sharing them on Pinterest gave me enough purpose to battle it all, and I did.
Pregnancy, Baby, and Instagram
At the beginning of 2021, I found out I was pregnant. After our visit to the OBGYN, I became sick with Covid. The mixture of Covid and 1st trimester symptoms left me bedridden for a month, and I had to quit both of my jobs.
Once again, I struggled with loneliness and a lack of purpose without having something to work to keep my mind busy. I decided to collect inspiration for pregnancy photos that I could recreate and post to Instagram. One of my favorite projects was capturing my weekly pregnancy belly by comparing it to the fruit or vegetable baby girl was the size of. Here she is weighing the same as a stalk of celery!
Creating content became my new passion project, and it became even more fun when I had my sweet baby girl Brooklyn!
I felt like I really found my groove in content creating with Brooklyn because everyone loved to see how adorable she was. Brands became to notice my passion and reached out to request brand collaborations. I started to feel excited at the potential to create content as a way to help support my family financially, and I worked hard to learn about that potential career path.
Then, in early 2021, I found out I was pregnant again! Although I did not get covid, my 1st trimester symptoms were still difficult to endure and I slowed down on creating social media content. I felt that it was extra hard to get dressed up and get outside for picture taking, but I didn’t want to lose steam, either. So I began to work on some more ‘internal’ projects that didn’t require picture taking. I spent the next few months building a monthly newsletter and Adobe Lightroom preset. I filled the newsletter with a handful of creative picture ideas that anyone could use to create their own content.
A Miscarriage Rocks Our World
June was one of the busiest months ever for us. Since Matt had graduated from college, we had to move out of our student housing apartment. Eager to save money to buy a house a soon as possible, we decided to move into my parent’s basement (which they were so generous to share)! We also had a family reunion in June and Brooklyn began to crawl!
Amidst all of this, we found out I was going to have a miscarriage.
At first, we had so many busy things going on that I found it easy to ignore the news of miscarriage and I thought I had just moved on quickly. But about a month later when I began to share the news with close friends and family, I realized that was not true. I sobbed on the phone to my best friend and felt frustrated with God.
Then, I had the miscarriage and realized that I was unprepared for how physically challenging it would be. I doubted my ability to survive a miscarriage, and once I did I felt very hurt and weak. For days I felt sick and discouraged.
Blessed With Gratitude
One day while I was praying, I suddenly felt overwhelming gratitude for my body and mind. I was shocked that my body handled a miscarriage and still managed to serve me as I worked on becoming a better wife, mother, daughter, and friend. Somehow, my body and mind handled a treacherous event and continued to function correctly.
The more I considered my gratitude, the more I also felt inspired and motivated. I looked around at my beautiful new basement apartment, my incredible husband, and my sweet baby. I felt so excited to create again. So that’s what I did.
Becoming a Content Creator
I started writing blog posts every week. I fell in love with filming clips for Instagram Reels. I planned a fun project for Instagram and even started a TikTok page.
Now, here I am, a content creator! I’ve been sharing more content, connecting with my audience, and working on collaborations with brands.
I’m grateful for my body, my life, and for God. God has performed real miracles for me over the years…
When I felt overcome with loneliness, he blessed me with a passion.
He gave our family the greatest gift we could ever wish for – a baby girl.
He took my horrific miscarriage and turned it into a learning experience. He blessed me with motivation to live a better live moving forward. I want you to know that I have a testimony of God. Through Him, anything is possible!
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read about my journey. I hope the journey of your life is filled with gratitude and happiness.